Success! Catie and I took an early evening walk from the main AUW campus to Panchlaish (where the faculty and a number of staff live) and I brought my camera along for its first real journey on the streets of Chittagong. I’m glad I had Catie watching my back this first time, but in all honesty I don’t really know why I was so nervous. I think it just boiled down to the fact that I’m not comfortable being the center of attention in the first place, which I invariably am as a tall (strike 1) blonde (strike 2) white (big strike 3) man, and when I hold a large camera I certainly draw even more attention than usual (no matter what country I’m in). Plus, when I look through a camera I feel somewhat exposed because I can’t really pay attention to anything else at the same time. So I knew that combination would result in a situation where I felt vulnerable in an already uncomfortable setting, and that made me reluctant to bring my camera down and walk that (literal) road. I don’t think I was ever physically nervous about the idea though, like I was going to get harassed or mugged or anything – it was really just a social and personal apprehension. In any case, I know that the more I do it, the more comfortable I’ll feel. I’m leagues more confident now even just after one short walk outside, and I think over the next few weeks I’ll get to a point where I can be out photographing on my own without a second thought. Maybe I’ll even start to venture further than our block (or, triangle, if you want to get technical).
Of course, since I am that tall blonde white male with a large camera, I did draw a great deal of attention. We especially had a lot of people around us on this one street where Catie says there are always a lot of beggar children. Some of the children and women were indeed begging, but some of the kids were actually just making a camera motion in front of their face, asking for a picture. I obliged, and Catie and I also gave a couple of the more persistent kids a samosa from an Iftar stand that we stopped at across the road.
Photos taken in Chittagong, Bangladesh on September 15, 2009.